I had the most amazing day yesterday. I had felt my progress stop some time ago, which is why I haven't written for a while. There just wasn't anything worth writing about. I was stagnating and I hated it. Well, I was finally able to afford an online class for empaths, and it's a three part class and I was so hungry for knowledge I listened to the whole first section yesterday. After my kids went to bed I filled my time with prayer and meditation and some journal writing. It was the most wonderful evening I've had for some time. I had been in a state that I wanted so much to help others I was impatient with my own progress and as a result my progress stopped. I just wanted to get my stuff over with so I could hurry up and help others already. Now I'm willing to be more patient with myself and take all the time I need for my own healing and personal growth. I am my only responsibility. Other people are responsible for themselves. I can only control myself and my own progress. I can give advice, or tell people things that have helped me but they must then make their own choice to use it to improve themselves.
I talked to my mother who has been afraid to embrace positive qualities and light because my dad is rather negative, and she'd heard that as you embrace positive qualities negative people kind of just leave your life, and you become surrounded by other similarly positive people. She feared her husband leaving if she decides to embrace positive feelings and thoughts. I reminded her that love is the most positive energy of all and as long as there is love in her marriage he will choose to embrace light with her rather than leave so he can stay negative. Our own well being shouldn't be put on hold because we fear losing someone we love who is not necessarily on the same path. Our paths do not have to be identicle just to have a good marriage, but it helps if they are going in the same general direction.
My husband got home late after a very stressful day at work. His shoulders were tight and in pain. He had worked 4 hours on just one sale. He made mistakes and had to redo things. He had about everything go wrong that could except for having very patient customers through the process. I gave him a massage and talked to him about first releasing his stress each time he exhaled. Then we talked about everything about the experience that he could feel gratitude for. The customers were patient. He now knows everything about selling that particular product having done and redone it several times to get it right. He had had the choice to go home earlier but chose to stay to learn closing procedures, and the other lady working had other customers to help while he handled this complicated sale, and had he gone home she would have been there alone to deal with all of it herself. (In the end he didn't get to learn closing procedures because the sale took till well after close.) He earned some good commission we could certainly use. When I was ready to go to bed he said it was more than just the massage that helped him, and his back and sholders felt completely better and relaxed. All the pain was gone and he took no medications for it.
In the end I'm full of gratitude that I finally understand my role in healing others, and it is really one of guiding and empowering them with the ability to choose to heal themselves. Which reminds me of stories of Christ in which He always said it was their faith that made them whole. I'm begining to understand. I really don't do anything. My mother chose whether or not to embrace what I told her as truth or whether she wanted to continue in fear. My husband chose whether he wanted to embrace stress or gratitude for what happened at work. Ultimately it was their choice to heal themselves, and mine to heal me. May God bless you on your journey of healing too.
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