Learning to conquer my own emotions has been a challenge lately. My four year old son loves to make piles of things. And these messes have been a HUGE trigger for me. Yesterday he emptied all the drawers of the dresser he shares with his brother and sister. I was so mad it took a lot of energy just to control myself. He had even taken out the drawers themselves. Every time I entered the room I was filled with rage at how messy it was and what a huge job cleaning and reorganizing it would be. I knew I had to overcome these feelings. I couldn't be productive while I had so much anger, and I would damage my relationship with my son if I gave in to any of the temptations the anger was bringing into my heart. I yelled and threw things. I never harmed my son physically, but my outbursts scared him. I knew I needed to calm down.
I put on some calming heart chakra meditation music, then I used a tapping algorithm for anger, and meditated to clear my chakras. The next time I entered the bedroom I had no emotion at all and was able to calmly begin working on the problem at hand. I still have more work to do on it today, but I focused the most on ridding our home of the anger I had felt and filling it with love again. It has made an amazing difference. I used to get very emotional about messes in my home. This habit was damaging to my relationships with my children, and the time wasted being emotional made cleaning them up take much longer than it had to.
Now I think I have tools in place that if I get angry again I can do things right away to rid myself of the anger and be able to really focus on the task at hand. This is all part of my process of learning my gifts, and healing myself and my home. I hope to continue to learn how to follow God's command to not be angry, and to love even my enemies, which on certain days seems like my son. May God bless you on your path toward loving everyone, even your enemies, as well.
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